I am so sorry for your loss. Please accept my condolences. I know how hard it is to deal with our greatest enemy 'death'. It can bring us great pain, suffering and sorrow. However, Jehovah (the God of the Bible - Psalm 83:18) promises to sustain us if we throw our burdens on him (Psalm 55:22). This indicates we need to take action and draw close to God in prayer. We also have the resurrection hope. (John 5:28,29). We can look forward to seeing our dead loved ones again. I hope these scriptural thoughts bring you some comfort.